90 Day Journey – End of Week 10 Self Awareness (I forgot week 9…)

So first, I apologize Week 9, I forgot you… So I will include you with week 10.

Digging deep into who you are, discovering the Why, and even the Who, What, When and Where, are important. If you have not taken a few days at some point in your life to really dig in and ask yourself “Why…” like Why do I react that way to situation X, why do I believe in Thing Y, etc, you are missing something.

Often these tidbits are not Life Altering, or some huge discovery about yourself, but they are important. BUT if something is big and life altering, then you have done yourself a favour.

Self Awareness, and being HONEST with yourself about who you are, what you believe, how you want to live, how you want to love, is some clarity that I believe very few of you ever really get.
We all know Who We Are, but do we REALLY know Who We Are?
The answer will shock the fuck out of you.

Elements of Self Awareness – Self Love, Confidence, Self Acceptance
These elements are not used to fool yourself into a delusional state, that would be the opposite of Self Awareness.
You could easily use “Confidence” to hide things, build up around them. That is not real Confidence.
Confidence is there to allow you to be Honest with yourself, look yourself in the eye and accept what you truly see (self acceptance) and then employ Self Love to improve upon it, or realize it is what it is, accept it and move on.
Not every weakness you find or see needs to be worked on. Sometimes they are just what they are, and the effort to truly improve them is not worth the time and extreme added effort, when you could do so much more with that effort on either a different weakness, or a strength and gain exponentially more. BUT Accepting It is ALWAYS worth it, Acknowledging it is ALWAYS Worth it.

What have I discovered recently about myself with this process? Glad you asked:
I allow the status quo to set in too often, give up the fight for change too easily.
I am not straightforward enough with employees and co workers when it matters most. (sort of part 2 of the status quo weakness)
When something finally has to be done, I knee jerk react to it, because I allowed the status quo too linger too long and now it has to be solved.
I am smart, determined, flexible and capable of almost anything I set my mind too (as long as I cure the status quo part…)
I avoid confrontation in situations that really need it, and confront at times in situations that do not need it (part of the knee jerk reaction from above).

There are a host of other things as well, strength and weakness, but these were the higher level ones and things I have chose to work on actively.

Now on to the Fun Stuff:
On May 5th – 7th I got to head to Eastern Washington for some fantastic wine events, a tour of Cascade Cliffs and the Leonetti release party. While there did some tastings at Gramercy, L’Ecole, Lagana, Col Solare and Jacob Williams.
Some FANTASTIC wines in that group. I will get some content out around those this week and a post or two.

Happy Weekend and looking forward to a great week a head for all of you!

–Chris